January 19, 2003

Age 21

Warning. This is a sexually explicit dream. This is simliar to another dream I had in June 2002.

Disturbing and sad.

This was a strange, sad dream. I dreamed that a good friend (KQ) and I had just been married. We were lying in bed in a large room of a villa or bed and breakfast talking about making love. We did and afterward, KQ apologized for 'being so bad at it'. I asked what that meant, and K proceeded to explain that they used to be of the opposite sex and had 'reassignment surgery' prior to my acquaintance. Of course I was floored and assured K it didn't matter, nothing was bad, and I was happy.

Then seemingly several weeks of time went by, and I would go up to talk to hug or snuggle K, but they moved away, not wanting any contact. Hurt, I eventually asked what was wrong, and K said that they really didn't like me anymore and wished I would keep away, that everything had been a huge regrettable mistake.

That's when I woke up, crying.